Coming out! Talking about my Hidradenitis Suppurativa & how AIP changed my life.
As of late I have been contemplating a lot about where I am. The last six months have been some of the most testing of my life. I have made enormous lifestyle changes. I have seen a lot of success, at times, and others were painfully frustrating- filled with relapses, flares and stand stills. Being a part of the online Autoimmune Paleo community has been one of my biggest comforts. Although, I don’t see my disease well represented in it- I know the reason… We, all of us who suffer with Hidradenitis Suppurativa, we suffer in silence. I use the word suffer knowingly. There is no living with HS, there is, often, only pain.
A few months before I got pregnant, I was working in a health centered kitchen and eating healthy. My skin was on fire in this picture, although it was not cold I was wearing a jacket to hide a boil under my arm.
Hidradenitis Suppurativa is a chronic, debilitating skin condition where your body is riddled with boils, abscesses, wounds, or scars. It often starts as a lump or a pimple in your groin or underarm and usually gets worse & worse, leaving a lot of people handicapped. It can affect one to several areas of your body. While our faces might glow, and people say… but your skin looks great! Underneath our clothes there is a war going on! HS affects delicate areas, and as such, makes it really hard for people to talk about. Only in threads, in closed groups, do people often feel comfortable to commiserate of the painful boils surrounding their genitals, breasts, underarms and groin. I get it. People who have known me my whole life do not know what I have suffered. Hiding my scars became an art, coming up with excuses for wincing when I sat down or walked. Always changing away from others. Shorts at the beach. Band aids, everywhere. Lights out during sex. Pants in the summer.
Honestly, the only reason I think I can be so open about it now is because I have it under control. As I write this my skin is clear… of boils that is. Still riddled with scars, but healthy, not swollen or red or painful. Dark spots that mark where they used to be. Healthy, for the first time since I can remember. How, why? Paleo. Autoimmune Paleo. Whole30. FOOD.
It’s been a long journey; I’ve had to examine my resolve many times. I’ve had to begrudgingly give up foods I was clinging to. Many tears have been shed, especially when my skin flares. But I’ll tell you… what I now call a flare up is a regular sized pimple that lasts no more than a day or an old scar swelling that also lasts no more than a day. No more are the days of multiple boils, which drain and swell over weeks and months. I’m still fine tuning my diet. I often yell to the skies, why me? Why do I have to give up so much?… but then again it’s worth it. Will I ever eat a hot dog at a ball game or order pizza in with my kid?… no. I WILL be happy, healthy & not in pain. My scars will fade, and along with them, the emotional scars too.
What I’ve learned….
Hidradenitis Suppurativa is an autoimmune disease. The root of the cause is leaky gut. To get your HS in remission you need to heal your leaky gut. To heal your leaky gut you need to find your trigger foods & stay on an anti-inflammatory diet until you see progress (less, no or shorter flare ups).
What diet? Autoimmune Paleo Protocol.
What’s that? NO: grains, dairy, legumes, nuts, seeds, processed foods of any kind, chocolate, coffee, nightshades (pepper, eggplant, potatoes, tomatoes) & eggs.
YES: Lot’s of vegetables, organ meat, seafood, pastured animal proteins, fruits, coconut (will be your BFF), coconut aminos (are a life saver), tallow, lard, coconut oil, olive oil, bone broth.
Once you begin to feel better you can start adding in foods little by little. Keep a journal. Write down everything. Read. Read a lot. Shop. Plan. Batch cook. Join the community.
My GO TO resources:
The Paleo Mom, blog: thepaleomom.com, books: The Paleo Approach, The Healing Kitchen
Autoimmune-Paleo.com, related books: Mickey Trescot’s The Autoimmune Paleo Cookbook
The Phoenix Helix, Eileen Laird, awesome pod cast, articles and just a constant stream of information.
Go in Instagram, search #AIP #autoimminepaleo #autoimmuneprotocol
My personal AIP Journey in a nutshell:
OK, so my elimination phase was a little wonky. I read The Hidden Plague by Tara Grant. She has HS, she put it in remission, it was a good read that outlines an altered AIP diet. I think AIP diets vary per individual. It still helped, but in the end, after keeping coffee, almonds & cashews in my diet in the beginning I took all nuts and seed out for a while. I read The Paleo Approach, read all the blogs… went back to the basics. AIP Elimination phase has to be militant… temporary, but militant!
6 weeks later, I started adding foods back in.
Not going to lie… I started with wine… then eggs!
After 4 months of reintroducing and testing foods I found out my trigger foods.
I can’t do nightshades or gluten at all! Lactose is also a trigger. Very starchy vegetables like yuca or plantain as well as nuts & seeds are fine in limited amounts. Eggs are perfectly safe (win!). No sugar. I’m very sensitive to sweets, even honey and maple syrup. Little sleep/lots of stress are major inflammation triggers. I can do moderate amounts of wine or tequila, but not often.
Updated #1 (October 2016): I have found that guar gum and xantham gum make me flare, it starts with a migraine.. If I keep consuming it, my HS will then flare. Since I wrote this I have done a few more Whole30’s. I can eat most nuts and seeds too. I can eat rice without flaring but usually don’t. I can eat some cheeses (lactose free). Still no nightshades. Alcohol and I don’t get along. I have started working out, a lot. Spinning, HIIT training and weight lifting. Things have only gotten better and my scars are actually fading! My body is really changing. I feel really strong and capable of anything.
Update #2 (August 2017): Still thankfor for the miracle that is the AIP and the dedication I have had. Almost 3 years paleo! Nightshades and stress are my biggest triggers. I have also started working on balancing my hormones and am seeing great results! I am doing a combination of keto (low carb/no sugar) and paleo (no grains or dairy) and I feel reallllyy good! My scars continue to fade and my body keeps changing. It’s so much stronger and leaner than it was before. It’s been an amazing journey and I’m not done yet!
Whole30’s are a great way to get in gear. If you’re worried about going full AIP, do a Whole30 first, and start eliminating inflammatory foods little by little. Before you know it, you’ll be crushing your elimination phase.
Lastly, talk about it. Reach out. You don’t have to do it alone.
Feeling great! Inside & out <3